It has been months since we have seen or heard from SS. We are not even sure where he is staying right now. DH has tried calling BB, texting, to no avail. She refuses to talk to us, or let SS call. Here is a little rundown: in the past 6 years BB has moved/crashed with friends nealy 20x. 15 different jobs-currently bartending. Nearly 10 different lovers/soulmates. SS has been to 4 schools, one of them 3 seperate times b/c she keeps moving in at her mothers(who btw is a lunatic) BB and her mom have a highly volatile relationship, and she has gotten kicked out of there more times than you can shake a stick at. All SS knows is domestic dispute situations due to BB irratic behavior. Whether it is his GM or one of her numerous BF's, he always gets to witness hostility.
Last december she got kicked out of her mom's again, leaving SS behind(like always) and stayed with some drugged out loser years younger than her, until she got her apt. Which btw is located in a part of town notorious for drugs, crime, prostituion, sex offenders,etc. But that is where all the tatooed/pierced freaky people reside! And she has aspired to be a part of that lifestyle. Nevermind SS well being. We are talking about one of the worst places to take a kid, much less raise one. Anyway come march, she has been evicted-somehow our fault. Back at her moms.
SS was unable to attend his brothers b-day, b/c I am not allowed to pick him up anymore? According to his GM. His father needs to do it. Control freak much? Yet whenever it was convenient for them, I bent over backwards to accomodate SS's transportation and care. Hubby has a disability due to back injury, and he is supposed to drive 70+ miles two ways? What ever will she do when he is unable to work and pay her precious drug money???
So last week I was talking to a good friend of mine, who asked how SS was doing. I told her I had no clue, that I'm not even sure where he is staying. She replies, oh yeah? Well I can tell you whre BB has been! The week before she was spotted in front of her bar, wasted out of her mind, drooling and stumbling while some drunken man was attempting to hold her up. Great. So while she is out getting trashed, SS is God knows where (while he should be with a stable family-US!!!!)
So I am livid. I decided to check out her myspace, to try and find something, anything, a pic of SS...We just miss him so much. Turns out she has more pics of alcohol than her own child. And this blog:

Friday, July 20, 2007

so i am moving again... i am not really sure how to feel about this. excited or scared. i hate the actual moving part. packing, shucking and sealing my things in boxes. then lifting heavy objects that are three times my size. this is no fun. but then unpacking and setting up shop is. i am excited to be out on my own again, i am my favorite person. i am always able to depend on myself. except of course days like this, where i am suffering self inflicted punishment in the form of a hefty hang over due to excessive drinking. alcohol never solves anything. especially when i end up getting pissed and walking halfway home at 230 am. but this is besides the point. i have two places in mind right now. i might be couch surfing till i find the one i want. till then i will be content with my decision and even more once the dust settles.

WTF??? Are you kidding me? Couch surfing at 30? I'm assuming she is leaving SS behind, yet again. All this poor kid wants is a normal life, and she has refused to provide any kind of stability for him. My DH is at a loss, my son misses him more than words can say. We do not have the means right now to drag her to court. Is there anything we can do??? I am anxious ridden and have trouble sleeping b/c I worry so much about him. Please, please if anyone has any advice, I am all ears.