All your comments have made me realise that I'm normal to have these feeling and moments where I just want to scream!! Yesterday was a bad day - me and BF ended up going sleep with the silent treatment which was my error so I've apologised this morning. I know it doesn't do anything to help but sometimes I just want to switch off and go back to my 'old life'where at least my time was my own and I had certain control over things.