its hard to love somebody and see them go.

Last night sd15 showed up (while i was at work) with another girl asking her daddy if this girl could live with us. daddy of course said no. well sd then asked if she could walk this girl home. daddy said yes be home in 10 mins.

Well 2 hours later when i got off she wasn't home yet? anyone surprised. no she never came home. the police were called she was listed as a runaway.SHE NEVER CAME HOME.

i get a text from one of her friends saying she was at school so i called the dh and told him call police and go

she claims she never came home and that i punch her and choke her all the time.

dhs was called

they were at our house within an hour

they had already talked to the boys

they deemed us safe. heres the kicker guys

i told them she would not be able to return to the house. they said where is she going to go. i said well that would be up to her father. at the end of all this they said if they have to take her they would take away the other children. dh says no that won't be necessary

they leave

i then tell dh he is going to have to be the one to take care of her and that means he would need to leaveout house. he said fuck that.

me i pay rent, gas,car payment , electric. i pay all the bills already. if she happens to come home from school (i do not believe she will. i believe she will continue to run becuase now the lies have added up against her ) he will take her to the hospital get xrays of her face and chest. so that i can be completley cleared. and then he will need to pack his and his daughters things and leave because she is no longer allowed to do this to me.

and reminded him what our 6 year old said last night "God gives sissy choices. if she chooses to run away then she will. if she chooses to kill herself...she will...and all we can do is pray for her."

i reminded him of our almost four year olds actions

i reminded him how much pain i was in last night where i wanted to die.

my choice is to have toxic removed from my life.

its tough but i will stick to it. i can. i am strong. i will have to quit school but thats okay i can do this.