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Disengaging worked great to stem the tide...but...

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How do I deal with situations like family vacations, Birthdays and Christmas?

I feel like a real jerk excluding my skids whom I have disengaged from when it comes to celebrations and/or holidays.

DW wants to take everyone to the beach, waterpark and other places in the coming weeks. I don't want to go with skids as ss16 will just be a miserable jerk the whole time and I resent ss23 thinking he should not contribute financially to anything.

Birthdays are coming and of course, so are the holidays.

Thank you to everyone

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that was kind enough to offer a word of support and encouragement.

You know who you are and you know who you aren't. Smile

After spending a pleasant "me" day, it was comforting to know that some of you understand the situation I am dealing with.

I don't see any reason to re-hash it and will deal with situations as they arise, but I did want to add some final thoughts.

Polyamory (here I go again)

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Ok, I am going to try to clarify a few things for everyone.

1. DW is the one who wishes to be "poly", I do not as I know it will hasten the inevitable demise. I am very familiar with the lifestyle and realize fully that she is using it as an excuse to "explore the possibilities". I am allowing it with conditions of discretion and pretending to go along to "keep the peace" and run interference if necessary.

Well...here's to "Polyamory" as a new chapter begins..

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DW has left with kids to visit family in Canada in full "Fairy Goddess" fashion. Dyed her hair pink, bought a bunch of belly dancing outfits and is off to explore her new found identity as a "Poly Girl".

While I am stuck running the business, I actually have an overall sense of relief now that everyone is gone. I am not concerned with her absconding with BS8 as it's much too early for her to make that type of decision, so I guess I am more relieved to have a break from the Skids and almost constant "discussion" on her latest spiritual insights.

How far would you be willing to go to keep your BK?

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Approx. 4 more years and I should be able to break free of my situation. (please read my other blogs if you need to catch up)

Going crazy as it was not knowing if I could make it and now this.

DW has informed me that she would like to be a "polyamorous" couple.

For those not familiar with the lifestyle, it is not "swinging" or just having sexual relations with others. It is a lifestyle where you have "intimate" relationships with others with the full knowledge of everyone involved.

My Secret Public Journal - Come Share the "Joy"

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I love the morning. With each new day comes the promise of so many possibilities.

My BS8, as usual, is up with me. What a wonderful time, I wish it could last. The joy in sharing these moments is indescribable. He bought a new book at a yard sale yesterday. "Pokémon" is his latest thing. How incredible...he likes to read! Unlike my SKids who abhor reading in any form. Especially instructions of any sort. Whenever anything came with instructions, it was either explain it to them or watch them damage, destroy or ruin things as they proceed from the illustrations only.

There is no escape, there is no answer, there is no relief...How do I endure?

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Married 12 yrs, run home based business with DW. SS23(b), SS16, BS8 live with us. SS23(a) (yes..twin) is currently in jail for drugs in Canada (his home country).

The issues would take awhile to type, but the problem is clear.

I am numb. I don't seem to care about anyone (or anything) except my BS8 anymore. Yes, that includes DW.