Youngest step daughter is at it again. Being the biggest pain in the ass. Our whole family had a wonderful day together. All the way until we got home in the evening. Then she decide to flip the switch and go to ass whole mode again.

It is horrible to call a 9 year old an ass??? I spend every single day of my life taking care of her. I went to her soccer game this morning at 7:30 am, even though I was beyond tired. I bought her and her friend lunch. I bought her new soccer shoes and lunch bag. I did a project with her. Made her dinner and washed dishes for her dinner.

I hope that everyone is staying strong today. My ups and downs with my youngest daughter is testing my strengh daily. But I love myself and who I am. We have to remind ourselves that we can not let someone else change who we are, unless we let them.

I am going to fight to take back who I was, and be better person, mom and wife! Good luck to eveyrone in this ongoing battle to be appreciated and loved as moms and stepmoms.

Ok, so unfortunately the life I had before my husband and kids came along, is non existent. I use to be very care free, positive and excited about life. I had friends and a social life. I loved to dance and go out. That's not me any more. That person doesn't exist. Having a major bout of depression. Life as a mom (aka - stepmommy) is not at all fulfilling. Like any mom would know, just about everything I do is taking for granted by kids (and even husband at times).

So here it is. My husband and I raise my step-daughters daughters full time. And have done so for the past 7 years. Raising a child, let alone two, is very very expensive as you all know.

I just find it hilarious when the birth mom, decides she actually has time to spend with our kids. It only happens about 3 times a year, for a couple of days each visit. But each time they have a visit with her, she basically tries to buy their love.