SS called yesterday. His exams are over and he is off for Summer until September. Of course, he has his music job but he has a lot more free time. My husband picked up the phone and SS imediately said he wants to speak to me. My husband was so hurt. But he gave me the phone. I finally got to tell him how beautiful the flowers he sent me were. He said he was glad I liked them. He put Sarah on the phone and let her babble a bit. I could have listened all day. I did not mention Sunday's event at ALL. It was such a horrible thing for SS's mother to do. It just makes me angry thinking about it.

I slowly try to bring up the topic of us visiting again. SS stops me and says, I can't look at HIS face right now, clearly referring to my husband. Then he says how he wished he was put up for adoption. It broke my heart. He said I could come see Sarah for a while tomorrow. But he needs time away from his parents. I said I will let him know tonight. What do I do? I did not tell my husband what SS said on the phone. But I really want to see them. They are my babies. Although one of them is acting very bratty. But SS is being very strong through all his mother's bullshit. Maybe some brattyness is expected. Should I go by myself to see them? My husband would be very hurt. I do not know if I can do it.