Hey ya'll!! LOL after being on here randomly off and on the past year and a half whining and complaining about my situation I have finally fixed it. I clung to the hope that the ostrich would see that being focused a thousand percent on his kids and leaving me standing there wondering what on earth would make him see he was just pushing me further and further away. It is sad to say behind his back so to speak I began looking for someone who would value time with me and not make me feel like such a mom and slave master all of the time.

I feel my participation on this site is what some fear--one of the lurkers. But here's food for thought: it's not my place to judge or be judged for why I'm here or why anyone is here for that matter. I heard the "get out-it's not going to get better". Until I was more financially stable I couldn't-where I live is a rural community and there aren't a lot of options for help here. I would probably be one of those bm's some of you gripe about without knowing my circumstances.