I have noticed that so many people around me are getting pregnant. It is wonderful that so many people are blessed with the miracle of a little one. However, I can't help but to fel jealous. I am a great step mom, and I know I would be a great mom, but I feel like I have to wait for a baby of my own. I feel like I get the short end of the stick since I don't get to experience the miracle of pregnancy. There is no real reason why I can't have a baby. I am perfectly healthy, I can afford it, and BM's drama is finally being handled. But I still feel as if having a baby is asking too much.

So BM with the security blanket of her BF is claiming that she will call the cops on FH if he ever calls her at work again. Short history, BM started calling at work. She is an administrative assistant with lots of time and FH is a contractor with little time to talk, meaning he can talk for no more than 5 minutes at a time. Anyways, for a while she was calling him at work and he would call her back.

I really want to go to court due to the fact that in the last year BM has had two CPS reports out on her. One was her leaving SD (2 at the time) in her apartment alone this happened about a year ago. The second one was recently SD3 come home with a cigarette burn. The burn is pretty deep leading me to thinking bad things so we called CPS who told us to call the police. This incident is still being dealt with. Anyways, like I was saying I really want to go to court and money is not an issue, however, I was wondering how hard it is to get custody?