Soo its been a busy year. After discovering ex so drinking problem and all the police and cps involvement..he did get sober. For 9 months.

I allowed him back home. Then as soon as probation was done..he started drinking again. I figured it out about 2 weeks ago and sent him packing. I cannot do the relapse thing. I thought i could but i really cannot.

We finally had child support court and i will be getting 613 a month for support.

Unfortunately with the one twins autism (had to pull him fron daycare as he was being mistreated) i cannot work a ft job at the moment so he did agreed to pitch in more then ordered as in meeting me at grocery store to buy diapers/wipes/the only cup my autie will drink from.but destroys every 2 weeks.

I have a roomate moving in because there really is nothing available in this area for a decent price. She is actually one of my exs mother. We remained close after the loss of a pregnancy i had with her son. She needs a place and i need help.

For about 8 months now i have been pretty ill, varying degrees and symptoms, lyme was ruled out so now i am being seen by an autoimmune dr to see if its something there. Mostly i am so exhausted i have trouble functioning. Ive been on meds for awhile for depression but im not depressed which i have been telling the dr over and over. I literally feel physically ill and weak. This ain't no depression and finally when i started having some numbness in my toes i was referred out.

I have not seen sd in over a year now. Any visits he had with her he took at his fathers house because i told him i didnt want to be responsible for her should he go back to drinking. I am actually going to be packing some things she has left here for him to take with him . Other thingsbi will be selling because i bought the stuff anyway and she always said how much better the stuff at her moms was.

Right now i have 0 interest in dating again. I have alot on my plate with the boys and the one special needs. I have a few to choose from should i need a booty call. And my soon to be roommate already said she would have no problem being with the boys if i wanted to go out.

I know that it will cause problems for her to move in..mostly with her sons wife..but i never talk to him. Have not in about 5 years. Have not seen him in almost 10 and i don't plan for that to change. So i don't really care i guess. She needs a place to live that is safe and i need a roomate. We like the same foods, has similar cleaning habits when im not sick. So it should be good. She does spoil my kids a bit but i will let that slide because she does back down when i correct them.

I do not think i would do steplife again. At 30 there is still plenty of guys with no kids if i happen to want a relationship. Steplife distracted me from alot of red flags.