I'm sitting here doing touch ups on family pictures before I get them printed and I'm thinking to myself who the kids look like. My boys have features that look more like me and my family. I see build and height mostly from my ex in them and they each have facial features but not the same ones from him. That said, plenty of people tell them how much they look like him. My OSS, same thing. I see both his mom and dad in him. Different expressions I see her, others I see him. YSS I cannot for the life of me find something that resembles DH, or anyone in his family for that matter.

Since I have been here. Family vacation sent me over the edge though. Too many people crammed into a space for too long. And me and youngest ss (whose love for me has not grown the last year and a half) had to be around each other more than usual. Plus side was he couldn't keep up the usual game of "look at me dad I'm being sooooooo nice to her" for long since he's hardly seen me in so long he's really been out of practice and in close quarters it is even harder. I hate when he calls me mom. I'm not his mom. I am furniture to him. I come with the house. "Mom" gets listened to.

Things were stressful. Illnesses, work, bio kids, step kids, the works. I hope everyone has been doing all right and no new major drama has been going on.

But actions are far more telling than words. Ss8 asks all the time (so dh says) when I'm at work when I'll be home. He asks when I am home when/if I have to go to work. Dh has repeatedly tried to convince me it is because he wants to see me. I made the point that he doesn't ask Dh constantly if he has to go or tell him that he COULD go and he (ss8) could go to grandmas or a sitter. So dh has started asking why when he asks if I have to go or when I'm going to be home. And now, ss8 has found the perfect reply: I miss her.....sure.