I hear it coming...and it's constant calls today-so constant I could barely get the bedding washed or go to the P.O. The self-pity, I don't like my life, I hate my job, I don't feel well over and over and over and over again.

I feel the crash coming-I can hear it in his voice. And no matter how sweet I try to be, nothing I say can change it. And of course, he's now due for a few days off...he'll be home right in the midst of the emotional drop.

I was pretty much dumbfounded. H called and talked for about 2 hours tonite...mostly complaints about his boss, the work, being away from home.

But then the conversation changed to SD17. H is unhappy with her-she's spent all of Christmas break running around, going to movies, out to eat, etc. He's sure she's now out of money, as she took the entire break off from her part-time job. And he actually said that she'd better not come crying to him about wanting this or that or the other...

I've been told that with a marriage as short as mine, I wouldn't be able to get any.

Before we married, I was earning about $20,000/yr. It was a mutual decision for me to quit my job-H had me convinced it was for the good of the relationship, as he works out of state, and didn't want me to be at work when he comes home.

My son made the comment to me today that I can't continue to live in fear. And that's what he's seen since he's been here. Friday being the worst-the 50 calls-yelling screaming cursing me out. Both my son and my sister saw it. They told me not to answer the phone anymore. Problem is-if I don't answer it, it just gets worse.

So the things I did wrong this week.