It was a dark and stormy Monday, after a weekend of being sick with hopefully a shortlived cold.

Sweetheart niece wanted to park outside our house and relax. I was fine with it.

Unfortunately Husband was not. He paced and lashed out "I am not ok with her sitting outside in her car when its raining outside, and it looks like you are!!!"

My first mistake was not being honest. My response: "Of course I am, but we are sick. This is her CHOICE, her DECISION. Im totally not ok with it!!!"

More comments from him. 

So, we have had Sweetheart Niece for 3 nights now. Shes slept on the couch each night and politely folded her sheet and blanket each time. Shes fun and nice to be around. Shes friendly. Shes funny. Shes many things. She did some dishes. Already I feel ahead of things.

She is trying to get low-income housing and apparently Toxic Troll tried coaching her with how to use an old bf, recreate him as a stalker and then mention that on your application (bonus points if you have an old or existing restraining oder).

Thanksgiving wasnt too bad, and now I am basking in the glow of having seen my niece and nephew for 2.5 hours. The food was good too!

We had the split Thanksgiving this year due to my brother and his family plus FIL and MIL coming down from 2.5 hours away.

I had been asking DH when would Powersulk SD17 be coming over from her mothers house and what was going on with Feral Forger SD24, for the week preceeding so I could plan accordingly. His family was going to have a really small gathering in the early afternoon and ours was scheduled for 4pm. But no pressure, right?

Ive been going through some depression. Feelings of isolation, and feelings of not being good enough, not being this or that.

Its especially hard during the holidays, due to family issues and the fact that holidays are so child-centric and I dont have kids of my own. Theres even a term "childless not by choice". Egads. 

Im getting through it, but some things that have upset me just yesterday.