It's approaching 5:30 pm so the day is almost over with. I am so looking forward to peace again. I have survived another weekend with the trolls, yay!!! BF had a glimpse of how "well-behaved" and "respectful" his kids are with un-flushed toilet with No. 2 in it. And I went out the deck saw the pillows on my loveseat were on the dirt. I was like, "wow, thanks, I cuddle them when I sit outside." So I washed them and told BF I was not going to put them outside again. You abused my things, you are not going to use them. Anyway, again, the day is almost over with.

Finally last night we had a quiet talk, we were both calm so no drama there. I told him how I felt about the kids situation and why I acted the way I acted. Such as the door slamming, kitchen drawer slamming, toilet paper dangling on the floor, never pick up after themselves....etc, small things but frustration built up. He seemed to understand and willing to accept that there was nothing wrong with me feeling the way I felt. I said, "I don't know, maybe it will get better over time or..." He said, "You won't. It will drive me nuts.

Right now BF and I are in a bad place. The drama and fight started yesterday when his precious ones were here (duh!!!) When they are here, there are always tensions (on both sides) and irritations (on my side, not sure how they feel, not that I care). The fight got so bad that I am pondering leaving again and of course the "I am bending backward to make you happy" speech from him surfaced as well. And of course the "I love you but I would have to let you go if you are not happy here, just think about when or if you want to go" talk.

We just had a huge fight minutes ago about the fire last night and about his kids that was wrong in my eyes but right in his and how hard he's been trying to please the BM. I don't know how much of his GDS I can take. At the end of the fight, there came his infamous comment, "I know you are not happy here. Just admit it, you know what you need to do." Well, it's his way to tell me to move out on my own accord because he won't tell me to since he's a nice guy. He used this line every single time we had a fight.