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I wonder how much we contribute to our own madness...

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Last night I couldn't sleep. I had a terrible headache and my nose was stuffy to the point of misery.

I went to the kitchen and contemplated taking Nyquil but thought it best not to because I'd be groggy to the point of not functional by the time I had to get up in 5 hours in order to drop my own children off along with my three stepdaughters at each one of their schools.

My Aspiration to be a Surfer

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Right aspiration is what develops in the mind once we understand that freedom of choice is possible. Life is going to unfold however it does: pleasant or unpleasant, disappointing or thrilling, expected or unexpected, all of the above! What a relief it would be to know that whatever wave comes along, we can ride it out with grace. If we got really good at it, we could be like surfers, delighting especially in the most complicated waves.

Winds of Change

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I simply wonder if we were all to sit down... lay down the blame and the anger, what would you be left with?

Would love fill your heart?

Would it be peace?

I did that. I handed over the stress of the ex and gently and firmly layed the burdens in the lap of my husband. I let go of all that she is and was.

I waited on my contentment and happiness to overflow my senses. I sat in anticipation as the sound of her voice faded away.

Her silence has brought me comfort... as I'm sure mine has brought her comfort as well.

I know we've done this before... but what does your screen name mean to you? Avatar?

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I'll start...I'm pretty simple.

I'm Colorado Girl... well because I live in Colorado.

My avatar is the fire dancer from the Dave Matthews Band.

Well because I love, love DMB and am inspired as a constant by his music and lyrics.

So I suppose I'm as creative as him in what he called his band in the assigning of my screen name. Smile

Anyone else?

Country Music that touched my heart...

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I googled the lyrics for this song.

No specific dedication...

(Please trust me and read them to the end. }:) )

I havent been to church since I don’t remember when
Things were goin’ great ‘til they fell apart again
So I listened to the preacher as he told me what to do
He said you can’t go hatin’ others who have done wrong to you
Sometimes we get angry, but we must not condemn
Let the good Lord do His job and you just pray for them

Anger is okay... Fear is my friend... and I am more than I ever thought I was.

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I thank the mother of my stepchildren. I do it silently for I don't know that she has the capability to ever understand.

She rattled my world and because of my inabilities to cope (let alone handle) with what she brought to the table caused me to seek therapy.

She's getting remarried and my husband's reaction is confusing...

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I'm hoping to understand better.

My husband's exwife is getting married to her boyfriend of a little over 7 months. They moved in together after two.. so I suppose things are right on track for this whirlwind romance. I tend to think that the his ex and her fiance aren't very healthy in their actions here. But what do I know? Moreso.. what do I care?

I'm trying to put on my best Colorado Girl face and not make this about me. He has every right to go thru his emotions whilst still being married to me.

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