I wished i had listened to my mother when she told me that child was trouble. i wish id payed attention to all the fits and the cry and the disobedience. but the love i felt for my dh was so great it didn't matter? where did all that love go? I feel sick all the time. I don't want to go home. we sit down for a family dinner and i don't want to be there becuase i don't want to be around her. i bite my tounge i do it. mainly for my sons sake.

so sd14 got kicked out of the residential treatment center she was telling doctors how much better she felt and was having no anxiety and just perfect....the dr just took her freakin word for it. and they discharged her. with no real family therapy talks no anything, called us friday told us to pick her up Sunday.didn't even discuss problems that might occur

Well everything sounded great as DH and I were talking about rules and how we need to do things and how he is going to be the head of the house and take care of sd14.

SD14 two hour family therapy session was full of bs! She yells and screams I don't want to do this anymore. Im done. Im done with home. Im done with the girls home. Im done being on earth. She has so much restriction that she even took a plastic spoon and decided to start cutting herself with that. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? Im pissed they want her to have a 48 hour pass for thanksgiving. Well I sure don't want her around me or my little boys if shes so "suicidal" so "done".

SD14 is in a theraputic home she gets her calls on monday and wednesday. Dh answere the phone at 9pm last night we were laying in bed (been battling the stomache bug) She says a short "HI" its obvious shes pissed off and Dh says "whats wrong" followed by the typical "nothing" answer. DH "okay well how was your day?" that was it she went off. crying "I knew this would happen everytime i call its a fight.