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A typical week

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Its still pretty crappy, but at least it didn't get worse. Ss has been doing the online school this week. We hired a "nanny" to watch him while we work. She has been really great. She is very understanding. WHich helps because Ss refuses to answer any of her questions.

Ss still hates our guts. And he looks like we are going to kill him every time we come near. My Dh feels like a monster (his words) for how he acted last week. Ss will need to do school in summer to make up all the time he missed. Its good in a way. At least he'll have something to do.

What do we do?

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I am starting to lose all hope that it will get better. There was a special church service yesterday and my Dh wanted to go. My kids went to the church already with my in-laws. I was not feeling well. Puking, not even able to get out of bed. So Dh needed to take Ss with him to church. Ss has not gone to church for a good while now. I stay behind and watch him most Sundays. But yesterday I couldn't.

Not good

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Ss went to school yesterday and came back in tears. He starts screaming at us why we didn't let the other boys come back to school from suspension. That everybody hates him more then they already did because of us. Because we didn't talk to the principal and tell her to let the suspended boys back. And then he went on to say it was probably our plan all along. To keep him in the house so no one in public can see him.

Any suggestions that would help with cursing problem?

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We have major major issues with Ss swearing. It is absolutely filthy language. But he was basically abused where he heard those words used on him on a daily basis. But shouldn't he understand how those words make us feel? He calls us assholes on a regularly. Tell us to f*** off. And he called me the c word once which really hurt.

Feeling pretty bad

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My Dh decided to have a Disney/Pixar movie marathon with Ss for the break. My kids are with my mom. Tuesday was alright except for when Ss said "If only all fathers are like that" after watching Finding Nemo. That really hurt my DH. But he was still happy to be hugging Ss and watching movies.

Second therapy session

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We had the second session where we went as a family. Ss started crying before we even went in so that was not great.

He did the same thing as last time. Telling us a terrible thing that happened to him. I was in tears this time. And my stomach was churning. I was this close to throwing up. Even my Dh was tearing up. And after he says he has plently more things to share with us.

Ss's midterm progress report

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Bit of a mixed bag. First the good news. His grades sky rocketed up. They are amazing. We always knew he had the brains, just the lack of desire to do well. He did amazing in his midterm tests. And he did very well considering all the craziness at the start of term. He has missed a lot of school as well. Before he would not complete tests. But this time he did. Which brings us to the bad part, he only completed the tests because he is still in his resigned state of mind. He just does what the teachers tell him. He no longer wants to fight about anything.

It pretty much was as bad as I thought it would be

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We just got back from the therapy session. None of us can look at each other in the eye. Ss is crying and angry and won't come out from his bed covers.

The therapist talked to us 30 minutes before we brought Ss in. He told us not to interrupt Ss. That we would have a chance to talk as well. I had the feeling you get before you get waiting in line for a roller-coaster.

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