I treat the fsd's fairly. I try to do things with them like play-doh, reading, coloring, painting nails...

I try NOT to show favortism but fsd5 and I really get along well. She doesn't remember me not being around. She always sits on my lap...she always wants to play - she rarely gives me a problem unless she is tired (like most kids do and they get grumpy). She is just a very simple little girl so of course I tend to lean toward her.

Has anyone read any books about Stepparenting? I won't set a wedding date because everything is such a mess. I have decided to pick up some books and I have been signed on the Barnes and Noble website forever trying to find a book that matches my situation and I have found quite a few. I have decided that I can no longer talk to FH about anything anymore. He just gets mad at me and says I am talking down to him. I'm not, I just need help and I don't know where to turn. My friends are married with their own kids or are not dating/engaged to anyone with kids.

I'm no longer playing games with BM. For now on, when I have something to say, I'm saying it. When I have a problem with the things she is teaching her daughters...I am going to tell her. I am going to be the one that is going to have to cover the cost of their braces and probably help out with college. I DO have a say! I don't care who disagrees.

*siigghhhs* There is no custody agreement between FH and BM. It's just we have the kids every weekend...and whenever else she just feels like bringing them over...Like when she just plans random trips with friends...or whatever. We get them. We don't complain. They are his kids and I love them like I would love my own if I had my own. However...sometimes...I need a break from the: