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DH's crotch goblin extortion is almost done....16 days are left of child support since SD will graduate on May 25th.  After 17 years (good lord that is a long time) of dealing with Beaver and the never ending custody battles...WE ARE DONE....WE ARE DONE....SD turned 18 today.

Holy Shiznit...I never thought this day would get here.  It has been a loooonnnggg hard sloggg....but here we are.


Update on Me... :)

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Well lets see..I took a break from pretty much everything after hitting rock bottom about 5 months ago.  Diagnosis...severe burnout.  Burnout from work, step life and the trama DH unleashed on me. 

Got back to intense therapy...and I'm much better.  Creating boundaries in home and work...and not taking sh$t from DH.  

So everyone should I act like how H thinks I act?

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Sigh..just when I though things were going better.

H...has ADHD..I try my very best to give him passes on things due to the ADHD.  

People of Steptalk I have tried and tried and tried over the last 3 years to change myself, to do better, to manage the triggers after H's cheating.  It ain't easy let me tell you...part of me always thinks the cheating was my fault. H thought I didn't pay enough attention to him.  

OH for heaven's sake..why lie about this...NSR ...a spouse rant

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My AH (ahole husband)..still cannot grasp the concept of not lying.  Seriously, why is this so freaking hard...

After two years of putting this sh*tshow of a marriage back together...going to weekly counseling to help fix my self esteem, work on my people pleasing and start setting some freaking boundries...going to couples counseling to work on our communciation and issues..this dumb@ss still thinks its ok to lie about shit..."to protect my feelings"  

PROTECT MY FEELINGS MY @SS.  ITS TO PROTECT YOURSELF YOU JERK. mother and her obsession with my sister

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Oy...really my mother is OBSESSED with my sister.  My sister is a legit genius...and is a veternarian. I on the other not a genius nor am I a vet.  I'm just a lowly college graduate with two degrees.  My parents..more specifically my mother...thinks the sun rises and sets on my sister.  Now..this annoys the EFF out of my sister to the point she avoide my parents like the plague.

Lying...a horrible trait that will continue on with SD

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Hey y'all been a hot second.  I've been busy working on myself with the help of my therapist...which is now a weekly thing.  Topics we cover are..

1.  How to deal with my triggers from DH's online extracurriculars....steller things like DH saying

     "I hate liars".  "I hate lying."  Which in my head I'm screaming...."YOU ARE A LIAR DH...YOU LIED FOR YEARS..YOU ARE A LIAR"

      Fun times dealing with that one..

And it begin folks....can't say I didn't see this coming..SD is going the same as GWR

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As we know SD was in jeopardy of not graduation.  DH let her know in under no circumastances that is not ok.  SD has gotten her form filled out, etc.  However, needless to say the conversation between SD and DH was a bit tense...and DH was very stern.  (as he should be)

SD had a well-child appointment..the last one that DH will ever have to do as SD will be 18 in 218 days..and thus ending DH's responsibility for SD's healthcare.

In this appointment SD had the following complaints/issues..

1.  Her stomach hurts all the time.

2.  She has issues with pooping.

Update to Eff my life....

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We now have a very pouty SD cause DH made her deal with this crap.

After I got home the other day. DH knew I was PISSED off about this whole thing.  I told him I am not waiting another year to get on with our lives because SD can't get her shiznit together.  I will sell this house out from under them..they can figure out another year of housing and I will move where the eff I want to.  I was done..I've done my time and its not fair to keep jacking my life around for his failed reproductive experiment.  

Oh eff my life..I swear

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After coming off a week of oncall hell....Saturday I was on a call for 18 hours...(thank you Microsoft Azure).  

I get the following from DH regarding SD..

SD was called out of class. She doesn't have enough seals (ie passing enough state tests) to graduate. She needs to earn more seals.


Is this a surprise to me...NO.  I saw the state tests and the fact she only passed one and knew her graduating might not be happening.  DH assured me when I asked she was on track.