The movie The Princess Bride reminded me that no matter what she dished out, he was so in love with her... all he could say was "As you wish..." I DO THAT! I will take most anything from DH. "As you wish..." in the movie meant "I love you" when it was said in the movie.

I am in despair. Confrontation with DH left me tonight with nothing but fear of my future. Does anyone know how to make money working from home. I am with some physical challenges, and working from home would be perfect. No childcare since I am sure nobody wants a dizzy woman holding their baby. I have dizziness and vertigo daily. It comes and goes. DH said he was glad to have me home with his the skids. Now I am facing the need to work again. To top it all I am depressed and not even wanting to shower! Good thing I just got a puppy who needs me.

Last night, DH was over for dinner and a movie. He runs himself ragged all day for SD15 and when he is here, he is "off-duty". He is not allowed to clean my house, do dishes, etc. because at the big house he does everything. Now that SD20 is home from college for the summer, DH is even more exhausted. Soooo, we just finished eating and were in the middle of a movie when his phone rang. I told him I would get it. When I picked it up, I saw that it was his work so I answered it. Turns out they wanted him to work the next day. He was furious and blamed ME because I answered his phone!

A few years ago I was a totally different person. I had patience, rarely snapped at others. One of my favorite thoughts = "Why save your politeness for total strangers instead of the people who put up with you on a daily basis?"

I am frustrated, bitter and often snap at DH. I don't like the person I have become after being married to DH and dealing with SD. Seems like I needed to move out before I realized just how much I've changed. I had an inkling, but after not living in fear, I relaxed and realized I do not like living in fear. It brings out the worst in me.