what if you dont love them? i care about them, but love? no. i am working on getting along with them but i dont feel like i have to LOVE them the way i love my babies. we have a bond that can never be compared. dh thinks i'm bad to his children because "i dont treat them the same" and i probably dont treat them the same. im never mean or make them feel unwelcome. i cook and clean for them and try to talk with them just to see what's going on in their lives, etc. dh on the other hand is totally playing favorites with HIS children, meaning the skids.

so as i have said before in my blogs..."ss"6 (not dh's bio) has add/adhd. he has a plethera of issues. he takes medication and see's a counselor. bm is a drug addict and is now rehab so that she can try to get her kids back. his bio father has been in and out of prison his entire life. the kid is in his 2nd year of kindergarten. can't spell his own name, 5 letters. does not know his abc's or colors. my 3 year old knows her's and he gets mad when she answers before him when playing flash cards.

if you havent read my recent blogs, here's the low down: dh was called in the middle of the night to come get his son9 and his other "son"6 because cps was removing all the children from bm's care. this happend on the night i told dh that i did not want to be with him anymore. he agreed to leave in the a.m. i couldnt quite kick dh and the kids out after being taken from their home, so...

Recently ss9 and "ss"6 were removed from bm and left in our care. she is only to have supervised visits with the children. i have thankfully never had to deal with cps before so i am in the dark as to what is going on. dh is relying on bm for info instead of calling the case worker (which is soooo dumb). my questions are 1: police came beating on our door @ 3 am on friday night and told dh to get the kids. he did. he was given a card from the case worker and a piece of paper that said that she was only to have supervised visits. that's it.