Update on me....and my H
So..I figured I owe an update..please no judgment..not everyone will agree with my decision and I know that. However, it is my decision and my life and I have put a lot of thought into this decision.
At this point...and who knows it could change.,...I have decided to work with H and try to remain in our marriage. While I'm beyond hurt and tramatized over this..I still do love ;him and I'm not ready to throw in the towel on 15 years together. He has taken responsibility for what he has done and the fact he shattered our marriage. We are seeing a counselor together and are both seeing counselors seperately. I don't condone or agree with what H did, but , in hindsight I can see how things in and out of our control have lead us to this point. We have hit rock bottom and now working to come back up.
Believe me, when I say it is not an easy task to move forward and I have moments of thinking WTF am I doing. H, however, has been very transparent about everything and willing do what I and the professionals ask of him to see if we can piece this back together.
Its is a slow process and we are taking it one day at a time. I am cautiously optimistic and time will tell if we make it through this.