I have been making a serious effort at modifying my shitty, immature behavior in an effort to improve my marriage. For example: no more name calling, I am trying to fight fair, take time outs when I get angry, not taking things out on my partner, etc.

I have been doing a lot of journaling, reading, we go to therapy, etc. I can admit I 100% was part of the problem with our frequent arguing and toxic relationship pattern. I would spit out some of the most venomous, cruel insults when mad.

I need to RANT.

BM attempted to trick DH yesterday while on speaker phone and it was oh so amusing.

She called about Halloween and holidays. She told DH "I believe you have them for a little while early this year and then you can drop them off." He grabbed the court order and slowly read it to her, it states clearly that he has the kids from 5 to 8 on Halloween. She acted all confused "oh, I didn't realize that, the kids are going to be so bummed..."

Yesterday BM calls and last minute wants us to take skids so her and boyfriend can finish up their move from tiny one bedroom apartment to new rental house. Normally we would be irked but DH hadn't seen them in awhile - and we planned to go to a carnival in town anyway - so we picked them up.

I am thrilled that BM ignored court order and is on "vacation" (her mom's shitty timeshare) with the skids. I do not think I would be able to maintain my sanity with new puppy and the skids around me this week. I have another whole week of them not being around...... so happy.

The new pup is not a bad pup... but obviously he is not fully trained yet and he is chewing, whining, etc. Last night I was folding laundry and he decided to hop up on my new sofa and take a long, exaggerated piss.