he doesn't want to try anymore...

I don't know what to think! In a way I am so angry and upset, in another I wonder if this is my chance to be happy.

He's tired of me being in a bad mood all the time. I just have to wonder what the hell he expects of someone who has been through so much because of him. For the second time, the ahole told me that he made a promise to not leave me when I got pregnant and that is the reason he has stayed. Actually he said he made a promise to HIS SON! But then says he loves me more than anything and adores me, but can't continue. Really?

Is it really worth it? I no longer think so. Anyone who says "well, just ignore it...it'll get better" Obviously has not dealt with the crap I have put up with. I talked to my 9yr old today and just mentioned about going back to Texas (he always wants to go back) and he just started crying...because his dad wouldn't go...AHOLE DH of course can't move anywhere for fear he'll lose his job and end up in jail instead...so we have sacrificed and sacrificed so that he can have a freaking family...meanwhile, we sacrifice and I've lost myself. I've lost all my savings. I've lost it all.

So I've been thinking...if there truly is a God, why does he allow CP witches to drain our families' finances & souls? It's like the CP can continúe their life, but anyone who marries an NCP father is thrown to the coals. I mean, if DH had cheated on the witch with me, I would understand the Karma...but hell! He didn't know me! She remarried 3 days after their divorce! She hides her husband so he doesn't have to pay cs! I never did that! Our son and our family aré the only ones to sacrifice...I am sick of the sacrifice, while that poor excuse for a mother lives off of us!

If you haven't seen this movie, please watch it. I hope it gives us all courage to find peace and move on, if we need to, from the craziness that we have endured...