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I find SD today cute - what is wrong with me!????

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Funny.Normally I find her rather a bit annoying or feel a little frustrated when SD8 is around.Lately though I have moments I find her quite funny and even cute,lol.Although she hasn't changed that much- being all chatty and "me-ish".I mean overall she has changed and is less clingy with dadddddy, who has also changed to make things work better.Allover my feelings go up and down with her though, like a roller coaster.Right now I find her funny-she is playing in the pool like a excited little water rat.Hah, see how long it lasts , lol

SO changes plans to take SD on our free day because BM wanted him to

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It doesn't seem to matter that we had plans.He doesn't even think it is necessary to ask me for my opinion.When stupid bith BM tells him he needs to take his child he doesn't hesitate to say yes even though we had plans and it doesn't suit .When I told him that he should have talked to me before and hung up on his ex to discuss things with me first he said he "doesn't treat people like this!".So it is ok to treat me like this , but not BM.
I sit here and can't stop crying for let down like this again.

I want to have a break of SD!!!!!!

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I just don't want to see her for a while.
Why does he have to have her 50%??
From my head I know why of course, but emotionally I just wish I would not have to deal with her 50% off my life.
And her voice hurts my ears, the constant presence of her over confident loud actor- princess talk.
And that face.just not cute to me.
I assume SO may feel the same about my kids sometimes, I know , all normal on the scale.The emotional sacrifices of blending two families.Not logical sometimes.exhausting.

SD 7 has a bra.

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As I did her washing I found a black little bra.This is so silly and not practical.As I stated before it seems very important to BM and SD that she gets prepared for her later adult life -in a night club.BM also straightens her hair and SD is totally self absorbed, can't walk by any mirror.Where are the kids that like to climb on trees , living adventures and being kids???Why has SD to be enforced in her belief she is an adult??????

when I got PMS I find SD 7 really , really unbearable around....

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which proves it is not only her , but also me ....We had her another whole week and her constant demand for attention and calls for "Dadddyyyyyy"'really got on my nerves so badly.Everything must be about her.I get really withdrawn and just don't want to see or her her anymore.See, I tried to give her lots attention in the past , trying to engage with her , but I feel just overwhelmed by her presence towards the end of what is "our" week.SO has been mostly good though, being caring and nice and not leaving me out, which keeps me going and hoping.This PMS makes it all worse, so I just survive

O/T inlaws overstaying,they were here for 7 weeks and now another 10 days.Any encouragement???????

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Every year my partners parents come to stay here for 8 weeks.Last year we didn't live together yet, but this year it is full on .I am totally exhausted, his mom is helpful and cooks and even does the washing, but she is so bossy , completely overtook my house and I feel as if I am a guest in my own home most times.8 blooody weeks, guys, 8 blooody weeks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

O/T my own 16 year old daughter is so ungrateful....

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Typical teenager, I know, but today I feel so stressed...Missy thinks she doesn't get enough of anything.She already missed out a few times because of her "whatever" attitude and her tonality towards me.
But- I got her nevertheless plenty of things.Nothing seems enough though.Frustrated.

why is SD 7 a "good girl" if she forgets to put her dishes away??Overpraising fed up!!!!

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It is not a big deal, all our kids in this family forget things at times, this morning it was SD7's turn to forget to put away her dishes.Part of the problem is probably that her grandparents are staying with us for 8 weeks (!) and do anything for her as if she is a baby.
Forgetting something is one thing , but why does SO have to tell her again what a "good girl" she is and what a great helper etc if she forgot her chores and needed to be reminded.A normal" thanks" would have been ok or even a "try not to forget it next time" much more appropriate.

tomorrow another week with SD.........slightly anxious again...guards up!!

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whenever I think it gets all better,I learn that my feelings before SD 7 arrives are always and still similar- I feel anxious and slightly stressed, inspite SO being so supportive lately.Are these left over feelings from the times when she was an extreme case of Daddys girl??At least I don't feel so resentful anymore, which is a good step.

did so asked the grandparents if his daughter should also come here on BM's care days?

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Just came back from the kitchen where the grandparents who stay with us for 2 month told me casually that "THEY didn't wanted SO to interrupt SDs routine by coming here in the times her mom is supposed to have her.And therefore SD would not come HERE on BMs care days".

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