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So H is back.
I have no fear he's going to hurt anyone at all. So I am safe, 100%.
He has spoken with his therapist 2x - and will likely continue with her several times a week for now. We don't think hospitalization is needed at this point. He agrees he is not in a state of suicide at this point, even though it's still in the background for him.
First off, you all are the sweetest, and I truly mean that. Thank you for all of the kind words and thoughts. I really was just sad and everything felt so surreal. I still feel just emotionally exhausted, but at least things are marginally better now.
Sigh..ok...the saga of my mother continued....
Backround....my sister, age 49, recently divorced from her partner. In that process she lost her house and moved to a rental. The last 15 years have been hard for my sister..she lost two relationships..one due to her partner stealing from their business and the second (her divorce) due to her partner being an alchoholic, lost her house and lost her business. (lost the business due to partners embelzement and her partner not paying the necessary taxes).
Why is it that these obtuse Disneyland parents will complain about the cost of eggs, electricity bills on their oversized homes, car notes for cars they had no business taking out loans for, etc but fail to realize the true money pit staring them point blank in the face .... greedy money hungry beastly breeders who use their kids by proxy to hit them where it really hurts = in the wallet.
Most men will not stand up to these human money pit liabilities
I am so heartbroken and sick to my stomach, but so thankful he wasn't successful. And the amount of rage and resentment I have towards skids and crazy right now is at a level I previously thought unattainable, because they are the majority of what caused this.
Please can someone give me some advice im losing my mind, menopause making it worse, back storey, 2 adult skids in thier 30's step mum for over 25yrs no children of my own became a step mum in my twentys.
There has been no contact with skids for over one year reasons being i do not know, no birthday, christmas wishes etc stopped suddenly texts ghosted, husband has never said anything other than i dont know whats going on with them.
H is coming back from his vacation early. He'll arrive in a couple days.
There have been many days I've felt like my life is not my own. I look forward to the days it is just me and my SO. I have resentment and probably jealousy about the amount of affection and doting my SD gets. She is a beautiful, sweet, kind and loveable 6 year old. She is also sassy and rude and gross and 100000000% spoiled. She is sooooo spoiled by her bio mom and my SO doesn't seem to see how he is also contributing to that.
As you all know right now I want nothing to do with SS. His birthday is today and of course last night SO asks me to pick up cupcakes today. I said I wasn't going to . He screamed at me , said a lot of bad stuff, and slept in another room. I guess I am a horrible person .
It was great. I was planning a week in Iceland. But, with recent career changes... again, we decided on an all points trip to Hawaii for 9 days. This is or first use of a boat-ton of IHG points and ... last years trip to Kawai Hawaii Airlines screwed up big time and gave us a ton of vouchers. So, 9 days on the big island and all we paid was for the rental car, food, tours/activities, and shopping.